I've talked to God about you

It’s part three of the November Gratitude Series and this week it’s really been on my heart to take time to remember that the real joy is in savoring the subtle moments that are happening right as we speak. I realized that somewhere between thinking about yesterday and planning for tomorrow I hadn’t stopped and said thank you to right now. So, here we are. A love letter to one of my greatest joys.

Hope you enjoy the read. 🖤

To my wildest dreams,

You should know that I’ve talked to God about you.

Long before I held you in my arms, I went to Him on your behalf every chance I could. Petitioning for your existence 86,400 seconds a day, 365 days a year. I spoke your name until my throat grew tired and my lungs collapsed.

It may come as a surprise, but I never spent much time imagining what you’d actually look like. Truthfully, I never cared too much. Whether it was the chaos of concrete jungles or steady Midwestern night skies, all I ever really wanted was to call you mine.

Still, you should know – you were no accident.

Every step you’ve ever taken, every twist, every turn was orchestrated – birthed out of the depths of my heart, exalted from my lips, confirmed by our God, and shaped through the work of my hands. So please understand that even at its murkiest, when things are messy and unclear, you are still flawless in your design.

You should know you could never surprise me.

Call it crazy, but it’s true. When I look at you, I’m filled with awe, but never wonder, because I always knew this is what you’d become. Too much pruning, too much weeding, too much sowing went into this garden for it not to grow into something majestic, something mighty. Everything you are is a reflection of the love, faith, and dedication poured into you.

So you should know I’ll always protect you.

With swords sharpened and fists raised to the sky, I’ll wage war against everything that threatens to bring you to your knees. And when the longest day is done, in me you’ll always find refuge – a safe space where the troubles of the world can’t harm or corrupt you. Here, your innocence will be preserved, and your vulnerability will be strengthened.

You should know that I trust you.

With blind faith, I believe in the way you move through the world. Every rise, every fall, every lesson, growth spurt, and unbecoming – I follow your lead into the unknown. Because when the storms come, I know you’ll always find your way back to still waters.

When all is said and done, you should know you bring me joy, just as you are.

Even if I could spend my days blueprinting what you should become next, there will never be another moment as beautiful as the one we are standing in. When I catch myself chasing after futures that have yet to arrive, I stop. I pause. And I take a good, long look at the glimmer of light that you are. It’s then that I realize I have so much to cherish right now.

And I think you should know that I love you. I see you and celebrate you.

Simply because you chose me.